Feeling Worthy and of Value

I am reading an article today in the Wall Street Journal about a 72 year old widow that invested in shares of the local bank since World War II, and that bank ended up becoming bought out several times until it became Wachovia. Now Wachovia is no longer and she is crying because she might have to move out of her house. Her son offered her to move into his basement with half a window. And this is a woman had her beliefs, I'm sure, in the American Dream. She's lived through the war. She's lived through the good times and now, at the end of her years, she's facing this financial crisis. The security ia slipping away.

Her worth seems to gone. What really is our worth? What will we be valuing ourselves by? In June 2007, ordinary individuals and small institutions, institutional investors owned roughly $750 billion in the stock on financial institutions By the end of June 2008, individual holdings and financial stocks have fallen by $380 billion, more than half their value and of course now, the end of September this last week, values have fallen further.

Now, stocks have fallen by another $35B or 53%. Last week the Dow dropped in value the most in history. And the stocks provide dividends to families that have relied on that income for their retirement. It is affecting myself,a late baby boomer. Luckily I have my energy to create a vision and see how I can re-create my life. I can feel myself worthy enough to be able to utilize resources, connections, through the globalization on the internet to find ways to fulfill my dreams and my passions in the midst of the all of this uncertainty. I have the ability to get educated in the field I have been working on for the last 23 years and be flexible in working real estate in a different way.

As for myself, I have pretty much lost all of my paper worth this past year and now I am in debt. I have not made much income in the last year compared to prior years as a real estate broker. In the year that I have made the least amount of income in my career, I have actually felt the most internal worth.

The time that I spent in my own financial meltdown in the last year caused me to go within as I had done several years back. Now I find myself in a position again of how asking: "Am I worthy? What am I really worth? Where is my value? I can honestly say that statement: When I have lost the most money is when I have felt the most worth in myself. And as they say, as above, so below.

I am hoping that this next year, that worthiness that I've regained within myself, inside of myself, can be reflected back in financial gain. I know it will. I know there is a lot of uncertainty. It's not that I want to keep my eyes closed. I read everything that is occurring out there. Every day I read the Wall Street Journal, USA Today, business journals, local newspapers.

I read everything. I want to be informed. I know what's happening. It's not that I am turning a blind eye, it's just that I am opening my eyes to something better, to something greater, and I can only do that because I am spending my mind and heart not on the thought of lack, but on the feeling of receiving so much grace.I am opening a new,let's say channel, like listening to a new radio station.

I'm receiving more and more grace every day and I acknowledge how I am totally blessed. I have the energy and luckily the health that I can forge ahead into the creating and visioning instead of seeing with the old eyes that have seen pain, loss and suffering. I've been moving into seeing with a different set of eyes and see through these new set of lenses.

I've been blessed because I have allowed myself to see through these new eyes and imagine what I manifest. What are you seeing in your life? Are you seeing only the loss and the panic? Can you see something different amidst the panic and feel great and feel completely worthy at the same time? Is that possible? I think it is.